Jacob Hudson

It All Repeats Out February 24th

Singer/Songwriter from Jacksonville, FL

The welcome mat

I'd walk around eggshells

on your porch

covering the welcome mat

that I laid at your door

 

I'd sing you a love song

you don't know 

carried all the weight of us

but you're not in love anymore

 

you say it's not the end

you say that we're still friends

but I know we're not anymore

no we're not in love anymore

 

christmas time was hard on you

you lost someone you never knew you loved

its hard to know your anger separates you from the ones

that you love

that you loved

 

I'd say this is the end

I'd say we're not friends

scenery is all that changes

what was it like when she left

her hollow eyes hidden by the drifting candle light

sweat in your eyes

she said she loved the children that you made

and the she left

and then you wept

 

what was it like all alone

the home you made haunted by the whispers of her name

cold in your bones

the emptiness you felt inside your chest

is just weakness

 

it's not new the way she felt the lack of you

you've always been confused

scenery is all that changes

scenery is all that changes

 

how did you tell all your friends

the reasons she drove away were not from your mistakes

guilt in your mind

you wished you looked as if you missed her kiss

but you don't

and you know she won't

 

it's not new the way she felt the lack of you

you've always been confused

scenery is all that changes

scenery is all that changes

 

what's wrong with falling out of love

what's wrong with being not enough

how do you say you're feeling numb

to the one you love

 

it's not new the way she felt the lack of you

you've always been confused 

scenery is all that changes 

scenery is all that changes

 

why did you write all these songs

hoping that they'd make her angry

or make her feel anything

it all repeats

you would sit quietly across from me

angered by the lack of my apparent sympathy

to the ones that you chose to give your heart

knowing in the end that you'd lose me as a friend

 

as we drove through those evergreens

taking pictures with filters we will never use

I felt the pain of empathy 

as you tried to find the reasons to stay with me

 

now you wait hoping he will notice you

blending into acts that will never comfort you

so post your pain for all to see and sympathize 

and fill your selfish mind with those compliments online

 

as I drove through those evergreens

burning pictures from winters that I hated you

I heard all the songs I could have sang

if I ever loved you that way

did I ever love you that way

 

now you condescendingly talk to me

hiding from the fact that I followed through your dreams

and for you it all repeats

and for you it all repeats

I'll never regret

she's content with her new boyfriend

she's got a new car, everything's in check

she took away all his instruments

just to make herself sure she wouldn't be next

 

she's content with her darkest sins

all she's done is moved from my train to the next

I'm not sure why I even think of it

just to make myself sure I'll never regret

no, I'll never regret

rubber compliments

I wish I was sick

then I'd write more songs

about how I've been wronged

about how I am alone

 

but maybe that's the worst

form of sin to wish you'd hurt

 

I am tired of making up rubber compliments

I am tired of thinking I'm better off broken

 

I would tell a lie 

if it made my name sing

I would help a man

only if I was known

 

I am tired of making up rubber compliments

I am tired of thinking I'm better off broken